Walking home today, through air wet with humidity, i tried my best not to be cross. It
is friday, and i do have a brand new bottle of wine waiting, and the Doctor to keep me company at 9pm. Plus the wine guy at the CW was unexpectedly cute, and friendly, and last night i caught the next-to-last train out of Farragut North because the sweet conductor took pity on cold, wet, running-down-the-escalator me.
I went to see
Pericles at the Shakespeare Company Free-for-All at Carter Barron last night with Josh. Unfortunately there was a rain delay, which meant we missed the last fifteen-minute happy reunion, but still. Good times. There were PIRATES!! Pirates make everything better. Also making tonight better: the sky has been threatening to open all afternoon. It's so humid and close and grey out; i know there's a thunderstorm coming. I can't wait. I just wish Will was here to enjoy it with me.
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AND. I just started playing around with the new W&M alum job database, and one of the first things i run across is an ad from CVLAS' Southside office. Looking for an attorney to represent domestic violence victims.
HOLY SHIT, y'all. This may be exactly the chance i've been looking for. The deadline for application is June 9, which is, what, a week away? I need to get my ass in gear. ...of course, it's scary as hell to think about completely upheaving my life like that, less than a year after i got settled down. But to be fair, i'm going nowhere in my job, much as i love the environment and my bosses and coworkers, and i really have started to feel like i'm missing out by not actually practicing law.
One of my main professional issues is the disconnect between what i want most to do and what i'm best at. I mean, i think -- i
think -- that if i can look back at the end of my career and see that i have helped women escape dangerous, abusive relationships, then it will have been a career well served. But the fact remains that i'm just not nearly as good in the courtroom as i am on paper. If i could write up long, involved, detailed analyses all day and have
that help women escape abusive relationships, then i'd just be in absolute employment nirvana. That ain't how it works, though. I just don't know.